Letting Go

Sometimes it's hard to sleep alone.
Sometimes it's hard to sigh a moan
And know no one can hear.

Sometimes it's hard to change the guard.
Sometimes when you wish for a ritard
You still accelerate.

Sometimes it's hard to just let go.
Sometimes you swim against the flow
Of days, but still you're swept away.

It's hard to sleep alone.
It's hard to lie awake at night and fear the end of days.
To fear the loss of you and them
Who fade away
Day by day
Way by way
Until you're all but gone.

Then new cadets take up the flag
To wage the war against the times

I feel alone.

But when the veterans finally part,
Those grizzled friends who know my heart,
I just can't help but hate to see them go.
I just can't help but want to cry
Want to sigh
Want to die
Want to never feel such loss again, again.

Now I know why it's so hard to open up the doors.
Hard to let them see
The ups and downs and all arounds
That make a mess of man.

My misery loathes company,
Because it hates to flee.
But when the guests have all gone home,
It comes right back to me.
Right smack to me
Right tackles me
right onto the floor

Then someone new pulls me up
Dusts me off
Holds me
hold me hold me hold me
With no threat of letting go.

But they'll let go.
And I'll let go.
And I'll let gone into my histories
And it will hurt
And I will cry
And I will sigh and wish to die
Then someone else will walk on by
The comings forth and letting go's that make a lifetime last.

So go, my friends, return at will,
For I'll be waiting, still still still
I'll be waiting, and if you return,
We'll live and love and laugh and learn
But if perchance you stay away
I wish you joy and, come what may,
I hope we'll meet again someday
Someday when we all finish

Letting go.